- In Perspective -

My body is smarter than I am.

The start of the millennium was very promising. I had started a new venture, a technology firm in the heart of the Silicon Valley. We had a good group of people and we were talking to investors. I had put all my resources, time and effort into it

It happened suddenly. It was mid-morning on June 14, 2000. I was in my office working on my computer when I felt a sudden stiffness in my shoulders and throbbing pain creeping up through my neck and engulfing my head. In seconds, I was not able to move my head or shoulders without considerable pain.

How naïve I was about my body and medical problems. Here I was, trying to launch a new startup that would change the world and give me enough money to retire to a peaceful life on a remote island. Dreams. Faulty dreams of materialism. In retrospect, I only wanted to run away from Silicon Valley, a place that used to be wonderful, offering great opportunities to anyone willing to work hard. But the high-tech boom fueled a business rat race, traffic congestion and a soaring cost of living that evaporated many dreams.

I was in good health, my doctor recently told me. Except for hypertension kept under control through moderate medication, in fact, I was in excellent health. Since our startup needed to conserve cash, we did not have health insurance. Of course, I didn’t need it, I thought. Nothing could happen to me. I was invulnerable. I would live forever. When my company would go public, I would buy immortality. I may even cryogenically freeze myself. I could afford that. I would just return in another century and start another company. There are times when dreams become fantasies: a dangerous divide.

I thought my pain was a migraine headache. When I couldn’t find any aspirin or Tylenol, I decided to drive myself to the nearest drugstore. But once I reached the first intersection, and realized I could not even turn my head without suffering considerable pain, I returned to my office. I called my doctor and made an appointment for later in the day, then I drove myself home. I should not have driven. But, I was strong. I could do it.

I did not have a migraine, of course; I was suffering a brain hemorrhage. I tried to sleep. The pain became worse, so, I went to emergency at the local hospital. In trying to find the cause of the hemorrhage, they performed an angiogram, which induced a stroke that nearly killed me. After my recovery, I discovered that I lost my left peripheral vision and could not read well. My singing ability, in which I took pride and performed concerts throughout the area, had suffered. I had difficulty recognizing people’s faces. My spatial visual field limited my movement. I knew I could not heal in the rehab hospital in which I was placed and voluntarily left to start my own spiritual and physical recovery. I learned to crawl again, then stand, then walk, and then run. I regained near full strength on my left side. My reading ability returned and memory blossomed.

Then, on February 4, 2002, I learned I had cancer. Although I went through radiation and recovered completely, these incidents made me realize it was time to examine my life. My body had spoken and it made me think. What lessons have I learned? I will not, in fact, live forever – what can I do to make my remaining years as productive and happy as possible? As I am a writer, I wrote these lessons down and now share them with you.

  • Plans Don’t Work
  • Not Everything Can Be Explained
  • Mind Breakdowns Happen
  • Be Responsible for Your Decisions
  • Don’t Hold Onto the Past
  • Love is Real
  • Don’t Give Up
  • You Must Listen to Your Inner Voice
  • Do Not Hold a Grudge and Be Bitter
  • Timing Plays a Big Part in Life
  • Life Can Be Cruel
  • Good Friendships are Rare, But They Do Exist.

My Passions


"An unexamined life is not worth living." – Plato

Walking with Socrates
“It is now time to depart-for me to die, for you to live. But which of us is going to a better state is unknown to everyone but God,” said Socrates in his final speech, “The Apology” from Plato’s Republic.

I read these words as a teenager and it made me think about life, living, and death. There is a philosopher within all of us. Who was this remarkable person who lived in Athens, Greece around 300 BC? He left a legacy of philosophy, a study of knowledge that has shaped our western civilization and culture, and it continues to do so today. As I read more, I wanted to learn more, ask questions, seek answers. The more you learn, the more you want to learn. The quest still continues today.

James Bond (007)
My famous fictional character idol who is dedicated and loyal to his mission, is confident, very sure of himself, always finds a solution while enjoying the pleasure of life and living.


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